I have started taking a new type of medicine this week. On June 11 I had an MRI done, which I guess you could say I’ve grown accustomed to. On June 14 I had a doctor’s appointment to get the results. Just like many other doctor’s appointments I’ve had in the past year. This time however they found growth on my brain stem.
When I heard the news, the first thing I thought was, what can I do to make this go away? What can I do to get better? I know I have an aggressive tumor. I know there is a process that must take place in order to get better. But I can’t help but ask, why this at this moment? I don’t have the answers.
It’s gotten more difficult to walk and more difficult to catch my balance. A friend texted me earlier this week and asked how things were going. I told him, “I’m tired.” Tired of the doctor’s appointments, medicine, less and less mobility, lack of independence, cancer…
Be that as it may, I have made the decision to live.
Even in the face of adversity, we have decisions. We can give into the adversity or we can, to the best of our ability, face it head on. No matter our circumstances, we have choices.
A lot of people don’t believe they have choices. And that’s a dangerous thing. Without choices, people act without regard to themselves and others. Without choices, people feel helpless and hopeless. Without choices, people get stuck in a rut and instead of doing something, they don’t do anything.
We must remember that the choice is ours. Whether we just exist or whether we live. Whether we try something different or stay where we are. Whether we hope for something better or whether we give up.
The best choice I ever made in my life was accepting Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. That decision means I have assurance that my life is taken care of. It means that as Christians, we are justified and we are saved.
Make the decision today to press on. Make the decision today to start over. Make the decision today to live life. And make the decision to live for Christ.
“For if we live, we live to the Lord, and if we die, we die to the Lord. So then, whether we live or die, we are the Lord’s. Romans 14:8